Am I a talentless fraud?

Soon I’m reaching the milestone of being a brony for 12 years. Joining the fandom in 2013 gave me meaning in this dull life and gave me the push to try art and drawing for real.
But mental and emotional problems through out the years made me commit many mistakes.

Not following or studying tutorials, thinking myself to be a big shot, to hide my insecurities.
Not making friendships (or possibly attempting to burning them) out of envy towards other people who are more successful than me.
Not posting art consistently because they were made for friends in extra-specific contests or out of fear of getting negative reception… or getting the “delete the art, I don’t want to be involved” response from said friends.

And now… just when I overcame this issues, began to be more consistent with my artposting and working on my socials… I had a realization: what if my time is up?
If I’m almost in my 30s and this [art linked below] is all I had to present to future viewers, am I this delusional? And by delusional, I mean “DarkSydePhil level” of delusion.
I’ve seen “younger” bronies joining this fandom way later than me and putting much more effort and improvement on themselves faster than I could do in a single year.

I feel like art was never my call to begin with because I don’t have the talent to do so. 10+ years and I feel like I got crashed against a reality check with blunt force trauma of a car wreck. I feel like a fraud.

Am I right? Am I wrong? Should I stop and revalue my life aspirations or continue believing in something I love?
Could this style have any potential that can be nurtured? (I don’t want to shill my channel so I’ll post a Gyazo link)

I am terribly sorry if this looks like a pity party. I just could not hold these feelings any longer and I want to know what other (better) artists think of me. Is it attention seeking? Yes, it feels like it. But again… I am too insecure and demoralized to backpedal.

I do creative consultation services with my company that I’m building specially to help struggling artists and creators like people in your position, if you want, send me a message and we can do a baseline of what’s making you feel talentless and I can give you some preliminary areas for you to work on addressing to help overcome this feeling and if you want more direct and specialized guidance (direct art guidance, accounting and goal structuring, workflow management, routine and creative process analysis) we could work out payments - but the baseline analysis and initial suggestions and guidance are free so shoot me a message if you’re interested

Aw :( you should keep going! its never too late to indulge in things you care about. if it makes you happy you should keep it around, no matter your age :D

Hello there
It may just my airiness or cynism speaking, but i think you don’t ask yourself the good questions.
I perfectly get that disgusting feeling, that sensation of being completly outmatched, that tentation to turn whatever can be, envy, jealousy, admiration or even spite into something more bad, against those who seems to be “better while easier” or against yourself. (And i hope here i get what you say correctly, i’m not english-native so let’s say i’m not a monkey enough to don’t get the point).

But let’s wonder : Do you like drawing ?
If yes, does it matter if some people don’t like it ? Whatever you can do, no matter how far you can go, you’ll find people who goes like “ugh no” for many reason. Personal opinions, bias or even just stupidity.
Nah it doesn’t matter. It’s your life, your passion, your fun at it. Why would you stop if you want to continue ?

Feel surpassed by some others ? And so what ? Sure, it’s very motivating having (a lot ?) people liking what you do, giving comments, sharing about it yadda yadda… but in the end, you draw for you in the first place, don’t you ?
It doesn’t matter if you do one picture by day or by month, or even by year. As long you had a good time thinking of it, trying it, finishing it, then looking at and think “i did as good i could at this moment” then coming back at it sometimes later, enjoying again by remebering the fun you had doing it, and realize how you progress, or what you could improve, and redoing it better (or a new one).
Everything of this, as long you enjoy even only one part of it, isn’t it worth enough to continue ?

In short : Don’t overthink or worry about it buddy, just have fun. Drawing is cool, so draw for yourself in the first place and it’ll be fine. You don’t have to be “the best of the best” as long you are good enough to enjoy it. I started by doing circle who wasn’t even round (‘still not sure if i really get over that step btw), and it was already fun enough to make me continue.
And if others are not happy about it, buck’em. If they don’t like it, they just have to look away.

The most important thing is that you enjoy drawing, and it doesn’t hurt anyone! If someone has an opinion about what you draw, so what? Do what you want, as long as it doesn’t affect or hurt anyone getaway shootout